My layout wont load since my account was disabled. Annoyed the hell outta me. I don't know why, but suddenly they just disabled it! Makes me wanna kick their a@@es.
I'm trying to get hosted now...Wish me luck guys. ^^
I got mad tons of times in just 5 days. And everytime I did, my nose bled. I don't know what to say about that. But I've been thinking. My family (except my Dad) was talking at dinner tonight, and my mom said she prays at night for the people in her life. and i was the second to the last she prays for. Didn't matter to me, I just continued eating. My sisters hate me...doesn't matter to me, I don't really care much about their opinion. But I thought, "What if I was dead, would anyone even care?". Apparently, it didn't really matter. Sure, my parents would feel sad about it...But I'm not needed anyway right? What about my funeral, would anyone even cry or hang on to my coffin? (But I plan to be cremated, so it wouldn't matter.) Then I started thinking what my purpose in life is. What am I supposed to do anyway? I don't seem to be needed, much less wanted by anyone, so what the hell am I doing here? I'm not depressed or anything, not yet at least. But frankly, I'm not scared of Death. Let it come to me anytime, I'd face it gladly.
I've been thinking for quite a long time that I need to see a therapist, cuz sometimes things aren't easy for me to handle, but I can handle them. I just need help probably. Though I know my parents reaction would be to just get mad at me and tell me I don't need it since I'm not crazy. What would it matter if I'm not crazy? It doesn't mean that if I'm not crazy I can't see a therapist for help. God, such thick-headed people.
So what is my purpose? I also thought that I'd be happy if I really was dead. Crazy huh? Don't get scared of me...I'm pretty normal, but with big issues to deal with. That is the least of my problems. Took a quiz ^^ How fitting. A Personality Disorder quiz.
How true...I am narcissistic, I admit. (hahaha!) Histrionic...hmm, the attention thing is true. Why did I become an actress if I didn't like to perform and didn't like the attention of the audience? ^^; A moderate in borderline (suicidal actions...hmm. HMMM. What do you say about that Chris?), I expected that...even a higher result (except for the poor self-image part, darn. If you met me, I have definitely NO problem about that. ^^;;). All in all, the results were quite accurate. Except that I'm not anti-social, I just tend to enjoy my time alone better than staying with tons of people. That's what happens if you spend your whole life with tons of people, your time alone becomes such a precious commodity. And on another note, I don't like taking advantage of others, I hate lying, and I definitely do not steal. For goodness sake, why should I steal from others? I don't need anything from them. Hehe...but it seems that i'm very self-centered. True...I'm totally honest about it. But I'm not a total b**** that I wouldn't give a damn if you died so I could gain from your death, that is just plain mean.
WAHAHAHA! I just finished another layout! ^^ The theme is all about the show "Kareshi Kanojyo no Jijyo" or simply, Karekano. ^____^
I was supposed to use another picture for my layout but then when i checked Chris' blog, my eyeballs just popped out of their sockets. We had the EXACT same image. -.-;; We're pretty close friends *huggle*, but then dang! Could it be purely coincidental or are we both "linked"??
*gets whacked by Ran*
Ran: You read too much fiction books. All those Anne Rice novels...there's hardly anymore space on the bed.
Raine: XP And sooooo?? Are you bothered by the "lack of space" on the bed? XD
Ran: ........ What are you trying to get at? -.-;
Raine: Oh...nothing. ^__________~
Bwahahahaha! XD I still have no idea where I should hold my birthday dinner. I was thinking of having some Japanese food...yet Italian would be nice as well. ^^;
Ran: How about having some German food?
Raine: No. ^^
Ran: Mediterranean?
Raine: Hmm...no.
Ran: ... Chinese?
Raine: Nooooo.
Ran: *dangles a bag of assorted candies in front of Raine*
Raine: O.O *grabs the bag and runs for it* hehehe! All mine!! ^____^
Mwahahahahaha!! Stupid thoughts of mine...I'm pretty high on sugar right now, so excuse the weird behavior. Really. I ate about two boxes of Nerds. ^^;;; *tongue is pink and purple* ^^;;;
Today has been such a HOT day. I could feel the heat burn my skin...I got a heat rash. ^^; I finished the Sex and the City layout Chris requested me to make. ^^ I'm happy. I like the colors!! purtyyyy!! ^^
Nice and Pretty!
You have an everlasting cuteness 'bout yourself.
You are admired for your calm exterior and stoic personality.
Why fix it if it ain't broke??
Classics are always a precious commodity.
Chris! X.x; Kuroe is my pupil!! *smack* stop stealing!!! ^^ I'll lend him to you, but he has to be back within the time limit. ^^; Bola-bola emailed me just now!! *deletes the message* ARGHHHH. I swear, It pisses me right off to hear from him. *gets placated by Ran and Kuroe* ^^
I guess it's okay now...^^ Just took out some codes and it's working! Sorry if you had a hard time loading it guys... ^^ *huggle*
Chris!! -.-; I told you Ran, Yuki and Kuroe are mine!!! *pounds table* ^^;; Kuroe is hot ne? ^^ *gets eyed by Ran evilly* ^____________________^
I went out today and bought a white gold with pearls bracelet. Let's just say it's my birthday present from...........myself.
-.-;
How sad is that? Hehehe...but hey,it's pretty cheap. It's 15000, and it's very pretty. ^^ And my sister told me that my summer days are wasting away...how true. ^^; Damned SARS...I miss Toronto. *sniffle* And I wanna go to Amanpulo! *.* Why don't you pack me in your suitcase Chris? O.o; Hehehehe... ^^ I bought so much bikinis and have no time to wear them! Shoot me dead. *cough cough* No Chris... stop thinking hentai thoughts. *smacks head*
I went to my sister's school as well. She having her Masters so she went to get her grades... She has 4 subjects with 3 units each (and if you have just 1 B-,you get kicked out). Anddddddddd....
She has straight A's.
O.O; That's not the end of it, my other sister got her grades as well, she's in college. And guess what? She's a Dean's Lister (1st honor)...AGAIN. And she might make it to the Honorable Mentions at graduation. ^^; And here I am, getting pressured by everyone to get into the same college as them...oh well. I'll try my best. I'm sure college is easier than High School. Everyone says so. Where I study, the workload is BAD. I mean people get so stressed in just a day. Just the first week of school you get stressed! ^^; Ask Chris! It's and evil school... hehe. ^^ But it's okay, that's a part of life...and I consider myself lucky to be able to study in a good school. ^^
Hmm...help me out here guys...Do you see all the pictures? I mean does the page load up completely? ^^; Chris and Aoi have trouble with loading it...so i'm wondering what's the problem since I checked the codes again and everything is fine... ^^;
I have a new layout! I got tired of the old one so I changed it! ^^ Hope you guys like it! I love RAN/AYA and I like Kuroe and Yuki!! ^^;; So far...I'm loving the new manga's story!! ^^ And the latest issue proves that Ran doesn't really die...apparently he got saved by Yuki. ^^ *glomps Yuki and Ran*
I'm dangerously addicted to layout making. I have 4 others aside from this that I just made...^^; I guess I won't be making any during the upcoming schoolyear. ^^
: == : Weiß Side B : == :
Weiß Side B...Kryptonbrand is Version 4 of "tarnished dreams". Features the members of Kryptonbrand Side B, (left to right) Yuki, Kuroe *drool*, Aya/Ran ^.~, Ken, Michelle and Furii. This is the new Weiß manga which comes out in the Zerosum monthly. Illustrations are by Oomine Shouko and is scripted by none other than Koyasu Takehito. The manga takes place a few months after Weiss Kreuz Glühen
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This is all about my life. The unbeareable grief and joyous moments all rolled into one small package.
Raine Alexei (aka Sumire)
April 22
I love to act, dance, sing, SHOP, read, travel and obsess about Ran Fujimiya.
Favorite Anime: Weiss Kreuz/Weiss Kreuz Gluhen
Favorite Manga: Weiss Kreuz, Akuma no Eros, Alice 19th
Currently Watching: Weiss Kreuz Gluhen(13-13) and Fushigi Yuugi Eikou Den (OAVs 1-4)
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